Sunday, January 29, 2012

In the Test Bungalow

They finally put you in the test bungalow with the rest of them.
There it was, its splintered walls a hodgepodge
of outdated revoluntionary phrases;
With an ingate slit known to prick the criminal amat fingertips,
and the waning floor waxed with a glossy syntax.

Footsteps beyond the door-- your rhymed hirudin stubbed upwards,
and you grew speechless in the raring circulation:
bioengineering limitations of men.

You had once sought refuge in the sheen church on the mantle;
That seductive Holy Bible bound in a cheap textile.
But this time the Tree of Life proved cryptic,
and the blank page filed you away on the maggot shelf fear
like the rest of them.

Ripple Relation Hallelujah!
An injection jabbed into your flesh with a safety pin,
its tip laced with the adrenaline driven agent of escape.

In a formulaic fleet you have passed the test of general grieving,
with colors flying.
You exit, rewritten in a side vet virus from outer space.
Someday, they'll call it language.



On Matters of Polyphony and the Dreamed Reality

The idea that a novel can be crafted through an “art of distance” can be seen in the works of authors like Dostoevsky and Nabokov. To some, creating this distance may seem a contradicting tactic to the completion of a story. Yet, life is riddled with contradictions and it is only through a distance of our explorations that we can truly see its purpose. The intermingling of the human “floating” consciousnesses seems to exist only through language. The individual Interpretation of language leaves no room for finding a final conclusion.

Bakhtin, in his essay "On The Novel” explores an author’s ability to create "a plurality of independent and unmerged voices and consciousnesses” where the characters of a novel organize and explain them. This is a major element of “Polyphony.” The term Polyphony has been morphed to fit a literary style of writing, though it was established in the context of music. It is defined as “the combination of a number of separate but harmonizing melodies.”

Our internal thoughts, once expressed in conversation, can be related to faint flicker of a candle. The rays that travel from our wick become scattered in spaces, disconnected by the shadows that echo its path of illumination. The eyes see only the patches of light that it wants to see, and like the allure of a burning fire, we can’t help from staring. The candles flicker blurs a true focus, however, and its intangible totality is a mystery we are constantly deconstructing. Being able to only see one part of the spectrum, the human mind cannot help but color it a fantasy.
The short story “Natasha” by Nabokov, captivates this idea of polyphony in literature, quite beautifully. The story seems simple, but is infused with elements of externalizations of inner life, expatriates and misfits, thwarted desire, irony, nature unfolding and instructing, failure with a light-hearted touch. It follows not only one consciousness, but all three of the characters melodies that by the end flow together to create a singular conscious in harmony.
Natasha, even while nursing and caring for her father with utmost sincerity, is quite attuned to "the warmth of her own body, her long thighs, and her bare arms..." She is lost in a world of her own construction, one part the physical realness of her external reality, the other illusion. Wolfe, too, lives in his own fantasy world. In the expression of his conscious thoughts he admits he may be living in a make believe reality. After reading the story I couldn’t help but confront the following questions: Is it really that simple to decide who inhabits a true reality and whose life is fictional? Is one man's insignificant life less complete because he merely dreams?
In Nabokov’s juxtaposition of contrasting themes, is the character of Natasha’s father, who is bed-ridden, ill and almost dying, seems to be the most in touch with reality. He pays attention to people's movements, and presumably, to their feelings as well. He is obsessed with the world outside that can come to his bedside only by newspaper. His persona is one of a cynic, bitter and void of a present fantasy, left shuffling in long gone fantastical memories. Though he plays the counterpart to the free bird Natasha, their consciousnesses may meld together to emphasize a duality of human thought.
William Burroughs, too, has a way of cluttering segmented and various poetic images to create an essence of a singular consciousness. The reader may be left with a general sense of totality through such innovative authors that operate within these boundaries of polyphony. However, at the end of Nabokov’s work I found no set conclusion. Instead I was left with the task of piecing bits together from the authors intended distance, unable to stop asking more and more questions.


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Coffee with William Burroughs


1/24/12

We met for coffee - where it’s cheap- in the Lower East Side of the city. A little-hole-in-the-wall on Houston, with no sign marking its name, only a wood door with a rod-iron handle. Burroughs sat alone beside an alcove of the café, near a small window. The only place in the dim, bustling space where light let in.

His back was hunched over with the weight of gravity, sipping on a cup of black coffee. No sugar, no milk.

“You’re late,” he says to me, though his eyes are grinning,“your lucky I never have an itinerary.”

I sit, and nervously reach for a raw sugar packet he is fumbling with in his fingertips. He is much larger in person then in pictures, and combined with my bubbling admiration for him, I feel insecure. I must prove my inner strength to him as a writer.I crush the packet against the table, and shovel the brown crystals into my winter mug.

“Now, there’s woman who gets what she wants. The freedom of New York City mystifies me.”

He reaches for the black box of raw sugar packets, and empties them on the table.

What is it to be truly free? He kept speaking, my mind focused with no room to wander away with these questions. His voice was a speakeasy, something in it felt natural to me, filled with an unfiltered wisdom and ambiguity.

There will be no ‘small talk’ in this conversation. No talk of religion, the media, or politics. I watch as the words tumble from his mouth in a jumble.My head whirrs, stomach tosses-and-churns along with it. This man means true business. I found myself involved in an exchange, one fragmented thought for another, all over a humble cup of coffee.

I’d unknowingly entered into a relay toss of collected disillusions.

He stacked the sugar packets into a tower, one after the other, and I grew lost in the methodic movement of the action.

“See, the form has imposed itself to the present time. But it is all just simply all a series of incidents that add up to something when you put them together. Its just about finding the right thing in the mix of it, and placing them in a space where they fit-”–placing two packets in the form of a Pyramid on top- “perfectly.”

By the third cup of coffee, his wizened hands had grown jittery. A breeze passed through the window, and its ripe energy foiled over Burroughs’s steady raw sugar construction.

He slid the paper-thin packets through his fingertips like rubble.

“Even so, things will always get jumbled out of place. It’s like a virus that creeps in from the outside. It seems impossible to determine how to start over, when it takes over.”

Had his imaginative intelligence led him astray from any true “reality check”? I debated in my head. I could not tell if the old man had become a cynic.

He reached for a black box of Sweet-and-Low. He shoveled the raw sugar packets aside to make space for a new stacking.

He ripped to shreds my silent thoughts.

“See, a virus will never harm anyone until it gets inside of its prey. It is extraneous and also internal. Whatever that virus is that exists, we dishearteningly are apart of its power.

The coffee cup quaked drops of dirt onto the table.

“It does not exist without our embodiment of it.”

My lips were speechless. The fresh air carried its energy to my senses, and I felt alive with new questions thrust upon me. His words echoed beyond the “classic” system of living displayed in front of me.

It was there, in that cheap café, with no name on the front of it, that Burroughs sat, looking down at his demolished sugar tower.

The genius always seems to humiliate democracy, and like a virus, I could feel it spreading.